disappointment

You want to be with me, again, but you're not able to care about me when you're not with me.
I wonder if you actually think about me when you're not with me.

We go days without having a meaningful conversation, and I miss you so much when that happen but it never seem like you miss me.
When I am looking about me, I am looking for you, but you're never there.
I am holding on, but I need you to need me back. Why don't you call me while you are away? And why won't you ever just let me all the way in your heart?

I really try to figure you out, and all I can guess is that you don't rightfully want me.

But it's always the same with you, you promise it will change but you never react. You never take the pain to make an effort. I wonder what can actually make you move.

A million words would not bring you back ; I know because I've tried. Neither would a million tears and I know because you can trust me, I've cried. And now, should I smile because we are "friends", or should I keep on crying because that's all we'll ever be ?

Nevermind.