How Can You Stay Outside ? There's a Beautiful Mess Inside

I Don't Know What'S Wrong With Me

People always leave me. In the end i'm always on my own.

Anyway, I've always been lonely. When I was a little girl I played alone all day long. And it never changed.

As a consequence I enjoy being alone. Is this so bad if i don't need nobody ? Is this abnormal if i can stay without seing anybody for days ?
I don't know if I like what I've begun.

Deep down in my heart I think it's my fault if everybody let me down.
I really suck in my relationships with friends, with lovers, with everybody actually.
I really feel uncomfortable in my own skin, like I don't fill into this world, like I am an ovni in comparison to others.


So, people thinks i am boring because I let them choose.
People thinks i am an idiot when I am ill-at-ease and I don't speak.
People forgets me because I never grumble

So they go, and leave me alone.

Now I guess I will always feel lonely in my life. Comfortable only with myself.
Great.

L O V E

If you are not affraid of walking a bit further in your relationship you will see it

Believe Trust Dreams/Reality & other craps

No I don't want to grow up. No I don't want to be an adult. Life is mean and so is people.
Leave me with my innocence, my dreams, with all the things I still can find refuge in.
Don't touch to my child soul.
She is damaged but she's still here and I want to keep it alive. My child soul is my happiness, the reason why I still want to be alive.


I NeeD SomethinG I CaN BelievE in ...

• Sometimes I wonder if life is really worth it, then I look at you and I suddently know it is.

♥CHOoCOoLATE♥

Better than a kiss, Better than read by the fireside on a winter day, Better than a shower after a tiring day of work, Better than watching a good movie, Better than dancing all night long, Better than laughing with friends ...

Better than life ?


Oooh yeah !

Once upon a time....

Tale as old as time ...

Y0u meet a man. Y0u learn t0 kn0w him. Y0u find c0mm0n p0ints between y0u and him. He is funny. He is sweet. Y0u speak ab0ut past. Y0u c0nfide in him. Y0u tell him s0me things y0u never t0ld anyb0dy. Y0u tell him y0ur fears. And he listens t0 y0u. And he puts y0u at rest.

Y0u have feelings f0r him. He has feelings f0r y0u. Everything's s0 perfect.Y0u're beginning t0 fall in l0ve. Y0u d0n't think anym0re ab0ut the 0ne wh0 hurt y0u bef0re. He tells y0u he w0uld d0 anything f0r y0u. He tells y0u he w0uld never leave y0u. Y0u believe in y0ur c0uple. Y0u give him y0ur heart th0r0ugh. Y0u make plans f0r the future t0gether. Y0u have dreams and y0u believe in them.

And all 0f a sudden he tells y0u he wants t0 put distance with y0u. Y0u g0 days withOut having news. Y0u are affraid 0f l00sing him. Y0u try t0 fix things but he says it's w0rse. Y0u cry. And y0u cry. 0ne h0rrible day, he says he d0esn't l0ve y0u like he used t0. He pr0mised he w0uld never leave y0u. But here y0u are : it's Over.

Y0u d0n't sleep anym0re. Y0u cry. Y0u don't speak anym0re. Y0u cry. Y0u eat t00 much. Y0u d0n't eat anym0re. Y0u cry again and again. Y0u want t0 hurt him like he hurt y0u. Then y0u try t0 f0rget him. Y0u can't f0rget him. All the contrary y0u suddently think that y0u w0uld d0 anything t0 have him back. Y0u can't realize it really is the end. Y0u imagine it's a dream and when y0u wake up he will be by y0ur side. Y0u miss his calls. It's weird n0t t0 see him. N0t t0 speak t0 him. N0t t0 kiss him. Y0u want t0 see him. T0 speak t0 him. And t0 kiss him. Like bef0re. Like when y0u were happy t0gether. Y0ur st0mach hurts y0u. Y0ur heart hurts y0u. It never g0es away. The pain. Y0u are n0t fine at all. Y0u try n0t t0 d0 s0mething stupid but y0u can't help thinking ab0ut it.

And 0ne day, y0u meet a man. Y0u learn t0 kn0w him. Y0u find c0mm0n p0ints between y0u and him. He is funny. He is sweet ....

And here we g0, everything starts again. Always et fOrever.

disappointment

You want to be with me, again, but you're not able to care about me when you're not with me.
I wonder if you actually think about me when you're not with me.

We go days without having a meaningful conversation, and I miss you so much when that happen but it never seem like you miss me.
When I am looking about me, I am looking for you, but you're never there.
I am holding on, but I need you to need me back. Why don't you call me while you are away? And why won't you ever just let me all the way in your heart?

I really try to figure you out, and all I can guess is that you don't rightfully want me.

But it's always the same with you, you promise it will change but you never react. You never take the pain to make an effort. I wonder what can actually make you move.

A million words would not bring you back ; I know because I've tried. Neither would a million tears and I know because you can trust me, I've cried. And now, should I smile because we are "friends", or should I keep on crying because that's all we'll ever be ?

Nevermind.

One tree hill

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.I was afraid of getting my heart broken again, like before. 'Cause you hurt me so bad, and I was afraid to be vulnerable. And I was afraid of you and the way that you make me feel[...] This was how I spent my summer, Luke, wanting you... I was just too scared to admit it.

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At this moment there are 6,470,818,671 people in the world[...] Six billion people in the world. Six billion souls. And sometimes -- all you need is ONE.

We Own The Night

I'm a tease
********* ******* ***** ******

I'm willing to let you
come tonight

...I'm yearning for
your touch...

I wanna caress you
I wanna undress you
Don't wanna be coy

♥***I wanna make love in a rainstorm***♥

Please, take off your shirt
& Put you hand on me

I got a selection of positions of affection
Me above you,

or you above me ?

We can do it fast

We can do it slow
Whichever way you want

Him, Himself & You

Because you are a big part of me ...

my first love my heart my evidence my love my friend my boyfriend my light my shadow my smile my man my soul-mate my pain my last love my forever ...

¤ It's between you & me ¤

Presentation

Me, Myself & I

Age : 19
Sex : Female
Country : France
Character : I am ...
(a little bit) Absent-minded (just a little!)
Mischievious
Lonesome
Babyish
Movie-goer